New Day

Hello, is anybody out there? I think that no matter what we thought about yesterday as the end of the world, we definitely thought something, I did. I was a bit concerned and curious about it. I could admit nothing happened but actually I had nice day and how I felt made me think that I really want to carry on with positive thinking and it could be my new start...again. I also read  today a post which Dov put on his blog and he wrote beautifully 'See you at the other side of the (yet another) end of the world'. I believe that lots depend on us at other side of the end of the world. Today, tomorrow and day after tomorrow depends not completely but mainly on us, on our thoughts we think and the words we speak. We create... our future every moment and every day.
I wrote this in my art journal yesterday: ' Rain, rain and more rain. I decided to go for my artist date after spending days at home. I chose Botanics Gardens. My friend told me that Botanics has saved her life so many times  already. So I thought it must be good place for the end of the world. My soul needed it. During my walk I felt just fine and happy with myself and everything around me. Truly happy. I am sitting in Botanics Cafe now. It is still raining outside, but I had lovely and peaceful walk in the rain. A green and jasmine tea is warming me up. I discovered Chinese garden, which I have never seen here before '. Enjoy your day.

The Meanings

Hello everyone. I hope you all are well.  It is very cold, rainy and windy in Edinburgh today. I  found new inspiration which probably is partly caused by the weather conditions. I have started to paint women with blowing hair in the wind. I really enjoy it. My partner was having a look yesterday at  'about me' section in my blog and he made a comment that everything in my blog has to have a  meaning. So I answered  him back: 'what is the point to do things if they do not have a  meaning'. I believe that everything means something. Everything is done by us with certain, big or small but still certain intention. An intention is a meaning for me. I do not want to write or put in my blog whatever stuff, I want  to share and I hope I do with my heart, my thoughts and feelings with people.
Today I would like to present my 'Wintery Me'. I put lots of meanings in this paintings. 'Wintery Me' is a collection of my thoughts and experiences which happened and appeared before and during making it. It was definitely beautiful time and pleasure to paint it. I was listening during my painting journey wonderful voice of Lisa Gerrard and also Archive music. The tree on my picture represents a shadow of  a tree which I see every night on my bedroom window. It is a beautiful and magical shadow. I  am pleased that I could transform this shadow into my picture. There is also lots of  little hopes and disappointments in it, dreams which have never come true yet. There is life and death aspect in it too. Oh well, it is 'Wintery Me' after all.

Wintery Me

 I watched 'The Loneliest Planet' few weeks ago. It is  an amazing movie, which I highly recommend. The main woman character inspired me to paint a portrait partly of her and partly of what she represented in the movie. So it is  the portrait of a woman who is naturally beautiful  and has inner strength, who craves for love and freedom. I hope you enjoy it. Have a wonderful weekend and very Happy PPF!

Little Things, Little Moments

It has been like nothing major happened but also  it has been such an inspiring time for me over last few days. Maybe, sometimes little things, little moments fill up our time with the most in happiness and good energy. I have started to paint again. Yes, I am back into the process which never really stops. Creating seems to be so equal to breathing process. So I have started at the beginning of last week I think when little thought attracted long enough my attention and heart at the same time. That little thought, idea, seed was waiting and patiently growing in me and I tried as much as I could to give this idea time to grow and expand. I tried as much as I could to be...patient. I did first sketch on last Friday and continued to transform my thought on the paper. Then a whole process of manual creation began and it is still not finished. I will describe it  more in my next post, when probably my 'winter picture', 'my winter me' will be ready. Today I would like to introduce you to my 'autumn picture', 'my autumn me', which I did few months ago, when I was completely in love with autumn and colours and leaves and smell of it. A 'winter picture' is a continuum of my journey through seasons and it is also a proof that there is no end, everything flows, everything begins and ends and begins again. The endless circle of life and death. Have a beautiful week.

My Autumn Me

Traces

It is slightly and very delicately snowing in Edinburgh now. We put up our Christmas tree. It is our fourth Christmas tree together. I have not done much art this week but I have had definitely creative week so far. It has been creative week in thoughts and little discoveries and also I was organising my creative space. I was sorting my works and having look through my very, very first drawings. The more I was looking at them the more peaceful I felt with myself. Sometimes I am very critical to myself and to my art as well but when I was looking at my drawings I understood that honestly it does not matter so much are they good or bad because THEY ARE PART OF Me. They all are like a big map of my experiences and memories. They all are little traces of my moods and thoughts and even of places where I used to live. They all live in that precise moment of time when I was creating them. That part of me which I left on the paper is still there and always will be. I am so happy that I can create such memories. My last painting is based on photograph which I took few weeks ago. I wanted and needed to paint that memory. A memory of beginning of our little, daily celebrations and gratitudes,  beginning of winter time, us, our love and  my love. Happy PPF!!!!

Traces

Delicate and small

 Closer and closer to the end of the year. Another weekend is gone.  It was a weekend full of different experiences and emotions. I experienced being totally upset and happy, calm and scared. I found time to paint and I enjoyed it so much. My partner baked the yummiest bread ever and created beautiful music which makes me very calm and relaxed whenever I listen to  it (you can watch the beautiful video and listen here) . Also I realised after writing my last post that there are few times 'between' in my life now. It is time between seasons, time between then and now, time between old and new and time between being far and close together. I always will be somewhere between. I did my last painting quickly last evening I rushed a bit but I really wanted to finish it somehow and put all my emotions and thoughts through into it. It is about something which is delicate and small but strong and resistant at the same time. Maybe it is about me now...

Between

The more I read and look at other blogs about celebrating time, the more calm and relaxed I become. This Christmas and winter is a bit different compared to previous years. I do not rush. Celebration time comes slowly, with its own pace. I am taking my time to feel, smell, touch and enjoy. It is still a time between the beautiful and endless autumn in my heart and the beginning of winter. This is what my last painting is about. It is moment between. A moment between autumn and winter. That invisible gap where I am just in the middle with myself. I am ready to start, to begin to celebrate with joy and peace in my heart.
I am so touched by how many positive thoughts and messages people put in to words or images in their blogs every day. I am so touched by how much we try to heal the world with our love. Every day. Thank you.

Between

Celebrations

I would like to write and share so much that I do not know even where to start and where to begin. I had a quite busy but very nice and creative weekend.  First of all, I have started my new painting on my new and very first easel.  It was a very early Christmas present from my sweetheart. I enjoyed my art time today so much. I relaxed and gathered my thoughts and ideas about December theme which is 'Celebrate'.  I cannot wait to continue tomorrow. I asked myself today what celebration means to me and so far I discovered that celebration means to me to appreciate life, capture moments of happiness, be aware of present and to be grateful. To be grateful every day. I believe every day brings us lots of reasons and experiences to be grateful for. Last weekend was a weekend of few celebrations. I went for artist date to Scottish National of Portraits to see BP Portrait Award 2012. My partner played amazing and beautiful concert at The Forest Cafe which you can view here. Also we went together for first winter walk. I would like to post some photos from this walk. Little, winter moments of celebration captured spontaneously in the camera. Happy week everyone.