November

Trees tell stories. They whisper when wind touches them delicately. Nature heels and inspires. Beautiful and cold November.

Her portrait

Hello beautiful souls. It is getting colder and colder in Scotland. Evening and nights seems to be endless and filled with blankets and candles light. I have finished my third portrait of my friend Domi. All of those portraits brought different thoughts and feelings. The last one is about those moments when we do not know which direction to take. It is also about uncertainty and waiting, about being lost and wishing to be found again, about taking time away to think and understand more, about those days when unexpectedly sorrow comes and goes, about life and its cycles. The most important is about my dear friend who represents all aspects of women nature. She is beautiful, delicate and graceful. She loves to laugh and she loves to love and be loved. She is strong and dreams about walks in the forest. Sometimes like everyone she feels lost but always finds her way back to happiness.

Thank you Domi (my Murakamia sister) and Thank you Marcin for beautiful photographs which inspired me to paint last three portraits.

Getting ready

I have just started to work on new portrait. Sketch is finished. I am getting pastels ready and setting up the music. My new painting journey slowly begins.

Domi

Cold and windy days have arrived and gets darker sooner. Autumn slowly turns into winter. I have been painting monochromatic portraits of my friend Domi for last two weeks. Painting portraits of Domi brought to me lots of thoughts and feelings about femininity. It is so important and precious for me to be a woman. Also it is very beneficial to be surrounded in every day life by wise and inspiring women. Femininity is an inner power of women. It occurs in their sensuality, sexuality, wisdom, creativity and sensitivity. Sometimes women forget how to access their inner power, their 'eternal source of Mystery that is their strength' as Sarah Ban Breathnath describes. Sometimes they do not even realize how powerful and magical they are. Women need to remember that femininity is always with them. We all have got such a big capacity to love ourselves and others. Being in touch with our feminine nature is an act of love.


The blessing of being
Be the power of fire, be magical
Be the power of water, be beatiful
Be the power of earth, be who you are
Be the power of air, be all you wish to be

Time away

It is definitely true that time heals. My friend visited me last week. We have not seen each other for over a year. Despite the distance between us (Domi lives in Poland) I found our friendship exactly the same, like we have not changed at all. But we have. We have both experienced so much in the past year and are in different moments in our lives. We can still trust, be open towards each other and laugh, laugh, laugh as much as we used to. I love to laugh with her. I needed her company so much. She appeared in the most appropriate moment. After catching up with Domi in Edinburgh, I went to visit my parents in Poland. It was so good to spend time with them. It was also good to distance myself from my worries, to go away, to spend time with people who I love and miss so much. It is good to feel loved by them too. It inspired me. I captured beautiful images of people and autumn in my heart and it nourished my soul. Also I would never thought that strawberries could taste so sweet in October (thank you Scott). I am back in Edinburgh now. I am rediscovering familiar spaces, the smell of the air and the peace inside and around me. I am ready  again.

Photographs from Poland

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There are ups and downs in our lives. There is also time when we make mistakes. The same mistakes  we have made and regretted in the past so much, hoping that finally we would learn from them. However, sometimes things and circumstances turn out differently than we would expect. We feel tired and a bit scared, stuck and blocked that we make the same mistakes again. Then sorrow and guilt come and we are facing the most difficult of consequences. We are trying to release ourselves from our inner pain. We want to forgive ourselves and let go but we do not know how. This is how I have been feeling recently. I have felt a little lost and distant from myself.

I decided to take some time to find my happiness again.

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I would like to thank you for all your beautiful comments. Thank you for sharing your autumn thoughts with me. Your words make my autumn posts fully complete.

My autumn

My autumn, this year is full of rusty colours and light, walks, cosy evenings under blanket and in front of the fire, books and movies which now I have time to read and see. My autumn this year is a journey to the memories. It is also time of giving myself space to be with myself, to find what I lost during busy summer. It is time when nature slows down and gets itself ready to rest for months in the winter. It is time when beauty transforms from youth to maturity.
I would like to share my micro autumn captured in photographs with you. I hope you enjoy it and fall in love with this beautiful season just like I did.